The first time I met my father was in court! Was 13 years old at the time living with my grandmother who adopted and raised me since birth. She was a good woman who worked countless hours so we could have some basics. Will never forget when the judge asked my father if I was his child and he said he did not know! Was heart shattering to say the least but the fact was, he did not know and was never informed of my presence on the planet. He made a genuine attempt to know me but I ended up in an orphanage shortly after our meeting and never seen him again. My grandmother was dying from cigarettes and I had nowhere else to go so I was fortunate enough to be placed somewhere relatively safe with a promise of a future.
When we are young it is difficult to understand certain things. I held on to anger and resent toward him and my mother who was practically non-existent in my life which partially fueled the fire of escapism through addiction. As time went on I was able to see more clearly and find understanding and ultimately forgiveness toward both of them. Forgiveness was the most liberating thing in my life! It freed up much needed energy to begin other aspects of healing that were much needed. I do not believe in accidents, the Universe knows what it is doing and we are extension of that awesome force of creation. We are participants and choose certain experiences before entering the body. As we zoom out certain things that appear to be pure evil on the surface take on different meanings. Although we may only be able to comprehend small portions of it at a time, it is important to ultimately trust the bigger picture even when we lack clarity. Does not mean we ignore and deny the horrors of WHAT IS.
So, I share this for those who may be struggling on this fathers day to seek understanding and forgiveness toward fathers who have appeared to make bad decisions. The sooner one can forgive and release stagnate resentful energy, the sooner one can utilize the energy for something more meaningful and useful in life, plus you will feel better. There is a movie I watched during this time called “Forgiving Doctor Mengele” that inspired me to search deep into my soul for understanding and forgiveness. I highly recommend it if you are struggling with any of these types of issues. After watching, I thought to myself, if this woman can forgive the horrors inflicted upon her I can forgive! Interestingly enough around that time I met a kind sweet old woman who had the Auschwitz tattoos on her arm! I asked her if she was in the camps and she said yes. We talked for a long time, when I asked her how can she be so kind and sweet after all of that she said she forgave!
The original meaning of REGULATE in this country was to "make regular" to encourage the growth of, not control or stifle or inhibit.
The 9th Amendment guarantees the retention of all non-enumerated rights.
One of those rights is The right to "heal oneself" with medication.
We have the NATURAL right to access of medication.
I still find it MIND BLOWING we cannot get something this simple correct in a so-called FREE COUNTRY! Yet, we somehow have the wisdom to know what is best for other countries!
This program appears to be a "legal way" to get around the "DEMONization of NATURE" LAWS if you live in a state CON"trolled" by folks with a REEFER MADNESS Jeff Sessions mentality!
Starting to fully understand the meaning behind the statement: For with much knowledge comes much sorrow, the more knowledge, the more grief.
Have grieved much this past year, for the deeper down the rabbit hole one goes, the more the heart is ripped apart! Certain truths about our reality are very heartbreaking! I understand why so many people CHOOSE not to look into these topics and prefer to live in a bubble of IGNORance. I have made myself physically sick at times looking into these things, particularly when PIZZA GATE hit!
My mind still does not want to believe in the facts presented however I know that’s just DENIAL and denial leads to some of the highest forms of suffering. Also discovering, expecting people to wake up who do not want to wake up is as foolish as expecting a hardcore addict to get clean who does not want to get clean! Expectations of others is a form of PLANNED RESENTMENT and resentment is energetically draining. Persistent resentment kills!
On the flipside, the more you know about how the manipulation works the less effected by it you can become. The same tools that are used against us are the same tools that WILL help one become more free. It is ALL an ENERGETIC GAME, “choose” where you give your ATTENTION and ENERGY WISELY.
It's so obvious now, hidden in plain site!
For those familiar with this type of knowledge I know you will understand what is in this picture. Walked past this building recently and got shivers throughout my body. Zoom in on the pyramid.
Have been detoxing intensely for the last couple of years now and can speak from personal experience to some of the truths presented in this video. This info can be a hard pill to swallow but once this truth is digested has a very powerful positive effect on ones life. As always, do your research and proceed with a certain level of caution, do not rush results.
Also, when I was a hardcore drinker years ago there were times when my friends were convinced it was not me acting in the manner I was. They used the word “possessed” to describe what they witnessed. Took a while to put the pieces of that puzzle together but in time I came to realize “I allowed” HARMFUL DARK ENTITIES to influence me through excessive consumption! The aura field gets damaged over time from “over indulgence” and all kinds of influential astral beings can easily penetrate the mind and body. One particular event that blew my mind when I first started to get clean was a being that resembled the Harry Potter type of floating entity known as a Dementor who came to me as I was asleep. The being started to choke me but I was able to wake up in the middle of it. When I snapped out of the dream my neck was a red-ish color and hurt just like it would if someone had choked me in the “so-called” real world! I now understand this was the entities last chance to harm me as it knew I was awakening and could no longer influence me. Was a very scary surreal experience among many others I would have in the beginning of my journey to breaking the dependence on booze.
If you are not convinced a zombie like sate of consciousness and continuous conflict are what the forces who manipulate this planet want check the billboard, pay attention to all the subconscious symbols and advertisement on the radio, TV and signs in your environment. Drives me nuts at times! Particularly when I am driving on the highway and see giant digital hard liquor ads. Many driving casualties and deaths from booze yet even when we drive they seek to penetrate our subconscious. We already know without a doubt the disastrous effects of this substance yet we still allow advertisements for it. Particularly in events children are witnessing. The Budweiser Superbowl ads are a great example of this. Millions of children watching, being entertained and programed to become future consumers of this product. Future addicts, future prisoners of the addiction industry.
FANTASY
Ask yourself, why would an industry who knows the horrific effect their product is having on the public have to stoop to this level to sell it?
Check the comments in the video to see the level of MIND CONTROL people are under.
There is a THIN LINE between entertainment and war! We have acknowledged the dangers of cigarettes and limited advertising to children, particularly cartoon character like advertisements yet still allow the same type of advertising for sugar. Next time your in the cereal isle notice the packaging. Captain Crunch is a great example of this. Alcohol is much worst yet we still allow our children to be influenced through these mentally invasive, subconscious penetrating slick advertisements. “Why” do we still “allow” this knowing the dangers as a society? Profit and control TRUMP wisdom and Morals. Effects of the “hijacking” of consciousness.
THIN LINE between entertainment and war!
To Advertise some get disguised!
On the flip side, there is a lot of knowledge to be gained by going through this vicious cycle if you are fortunate to make it out of the trap alive! I do not recommend taking it to this level but for some of us who are "resistant to change" and personal growth THIS IS THE ONLY WAY TO KNOW. I am a very fortunate person to have done this and now wish to share my experience and thoughts on such topics.
Tragic Comedy
Alcohol is a very seductive substance that alters cognitive functions among many other harmful things. Plenty of literature on line for those so inclined. In the beginning it is fun and euphoric, then like many addictive things becomes a "downward spiral of self pity and regrets." I write this not to preach or tell people what to do but to share my experiences for those interested in such knowings. Telling people what to do does not work! This is more for those already on this path of self destruction who may read this and decide to put the brakes on, slow down and re-think what they are doing. I solute anyone who is able to control their drinking habit but have hardly met anyone who truly can. Continuous excessive drinking is a lot like opening the HELLRAISER box and you never know what is going to come through! I did a lot of damage to my mind and body during those times and it has taken a good ten plus years to rejuvenate myself. It can be done so NEVER LOSE HOPE!
What's your pleasure???
Finally, for those interested in making a positive change on earth. By consuming alcohol products you are supporting a extremely corrupt industry. Not giving these people your money is one of the best ways to stop it. WILL also inspire others to stop as well. We do “have the power” to CHOOSE what we put in our bodies. Choose wisely! “Spiritual warfare” IS REAL, the war on consciousness is the most profound war being waged. This substance is one of the biggest tools aside from psychological television/smart phone programming being used to keep us in bondage through ADDICTION and addiction is ultimately slavery!
What this boils down to is ENERGY CONTROL. You give them your time, money/ENERGY and they provide you with products that deplete and steal your energy so WE are more easily controllable! If you seek to have more money, time, energy and control over your life, thoughts and emotions, better relationships and the things that matter most the decision will be easy. The path in the beginning will be difficult but well worth the effort.
THE CHOICE IS YOURS ONLY...
Poem I wrote during those times:
Planet Misery
I imagine my depression and addiction as the most violent well known and unpredictably predictable planet.
Landscapes of loneliness and madness, confusion and sadness.
Where everything is a mess!
I am not the only one here. I am often swimming and indulging in oceans of tequila, wine, and beer.
Crouched in a dark corner surrounded by paranoia, drama and fear.
Atmosphere so dry I cannot shed a tear.
This is the land anyone can get near.
Oh look, there goes Champagne fountain, next stop, Cocaine Mountain!
Maybe this place isn’t so bad, when indulging I am glad.
Now I am on the opiate carnival roller coaster ride.
Up-down-up-down-around and around-frown-frown-frown.
Sad faced clown!
This planet seems so great.
So why am I filled with such anger and hate?
Racing thoughts and a never-ending self destructive mind debate.
In this world, life has little value.
In this universe life is a curse!
Frequent lunatic like outburst!
There is a car familiar to our kind…it’s called a Hurst!
We play a game called who’s gonna die first!
Another one we call, speed-ball.
The best and most dangerous of them all!
This game last twenty minutes at a time, everything is legal, nothings a crime.
You won’t even have to pay a fine.
Just give up your life energy.
There is more than enough to go around, for you, for me.
The Endocannabinoid System plays a centrical part in homeostasis. At this point we know that the people blocking this plant from being readily available to the public without criminal consequences are very sick so I won’t say much more about that. This blog is mostly for those who are not even aware that we have a endocannabinoid system and as more evidence that we are meant to utilize this wonderful plant for many health and recreational reasons including expanded conscious awareness. Particularly when we are allowed to use tobacco and booze which we know are often lethal. There is ample amount of evidence right now to decriminalize.
A lot of what I am doing here is gathering evidence. I do not know how to convince THE CRIMINALLY INSANE into doing what is right and much needed for the public but I do know that ALL "change starts with awareness." At a basic level of understanding, if a person is sick they must become aware of the cause of the sickness and what the sickness is to treat it. Same applies to all the problems we are facing at the moment. This also requires brutal honesty!
Once aware, it is up to us to spread awareness if “we choose” to see a positive effect upon the many problems we face as earthlings. For the more people who become aware of the cause, the more people we have to participate in a positive effect. Awareness is like a beam of light shining into a dark cave revealing details unseen otherwise. The more beams of light, the more seen, the more seen, the easier to understand and properly navigate through what was once complete darkness.
We are those beams, shine bright and healthy while spreading awareness. The more people who know...the more we can grow. A spark of awareness is also like a spark of fire with the potential to become a huge burning flame of truth! The spark needed for real change that we spark in others.
I also wanted to share a personal experience and something I do to plant seeds/spark flames. Sometimes all we can do is plant a seed and hope it grows. Last week I asked my loving chiropractor if he was aware of the endocannabinoid system, if they taught that when he was in school? To my surprise he said no and seemed interested. I suggested he might want to look into it because of how it effects other systems in the body and he wrote it down. This is a highly educated physician who had no idea of this system, but now he does and might take an interest and inform others. These little things help a lot! So, next time you are with a doctor simply ask if they know about it and if they do, ask what their opinion is in relationship to using cannabis. If they do not know about it, drop a little knowledge on them about it to “spark” interest.
Sometimes at the risk of pissing people off I push against programs in an attempt to penetrate the subconscious. I do not enjoy doing this but is necessary at times. People will delete you from social media or run away but if it helps plant a seed/spark interest is well worth it. Would rather provide useful information and be disliked rather than providing sugar coated half truths that leave people stuck in a trap of ignorance. When I was a hardcore drinker I lost many friends who tried to tell me I had a problem. The denial was so deep on my end I wanted nothing to do with the truth about my self. I owe all of them a great debt of gratitude because they were right and their words eventually helped wake me up to seek help. Pushing too hard against programs for people who are not ready can be dangerous so use caution and discern to the best of your ability.
This is one of the most important issues we currently face. The war on plants and nature, between synthetic and authentic natural ways of living, human vs transhuman. However, the media and many other propaganda outlets still have much of the sleepy publics attention on external events and criminals while mostly ignoring and redirecting focus from internal criminal behavior and the “real war” on consciousness.
Shine your light on these topics whenever possible. Your work is greatly appreciated by many you will never see, meet or even get a thank you from. Future beings that will not have to go through the "unnecessary" pain and suffering we are currently experiencing from the work we do now. Also want to express my love and respect to all the awakened doctors and educators on the front lines risking it all, it keeps me motivated to continue moving forward. Finally, to all the doctors waking up and feeling bad about all of this, forgive yourself, it is not your fault! We have all been tricked into a lot of harmful programming. What we do with what we know now is what matters most and we need your help.
